I am passionate about church. I have a lot of strong feelings and opinions. I usually keep them to myself because alot are negative.
I think this is how I feel about church right now…
But the thing is that I feel really excited about working in a church someday again. I think I might just be a bit unhinged right now. But I want to some day.
See here is the thing. I think I would cause a lot of trouble. I think I would find myself shouting, shaking people and acting like a man raised by wolves.
Being passionate is perfect in a church. Being a loose cannon isn’t so much.
But I am really enjoying getting to know my crazy side. (Imagine a very devious smile as I write that) The only problem is that commandeering a bulldozer when someone locks me out really shouldn’t be a real option.
Here is what I am trying to get at: I love getting to know that other side of me. I love having to control myself. I love learning to be untame and unpredictable. I don’t want to be safe.
As Mr. Beaver says about Aslan in The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe, “Safe? Who said anything about safe? Of course he isn't safe! But he's good, I tell you!”
So before I let myself unleash the crazy, I need to ensure that I am good.
When I think about that chipmunk and that peanut, my first impression is that that chipmunk is out of its mind. Now that I am at the end of this thought, I admire that crazy look in that chipmunk’s eye.
Please. Please. Please. Tell me your thoughts.